Sunday, February 12, 2012

My life lately in a NUT SHELL

If you were to ask me five years ago where I thought I would be today it is nothing that I would have imagined my life to be like. I used to think that in order for me to be happy I needed to be married, be a nurse, have children, have a boyfriend, have the perfect body etc., but what I didn't realize is that yes those things are great, but I can't rely on the future to make me happy. I have to live in the NOW, and realize all of the blessings in my life that I have that brings me true happiness. Those things being my family, the gospel, friends, my job, my education, my bed, a good hair day, and the list goes on and on. I truly am so blessed, and so HAPPY! I have a loving Heavenly Father who is aware of my every need. Who loves me for me, and who is always there no matter what. I have recently moved home. The past couple of years I have tried to fix everyone else problems, and to make everyone else happy, but what I wasn't doing was taking care of myself. I was so worried about making everyone else happy that I was forgetting to be happy myself. I have had a huge boulder lifted from my shoulders. It feels great to be home with people who love me the most. To have a home cooked meal everyday. To get to sleep with my brother J every night. To be happy!! I loved every minute of living in Orem, but change is good! I need change in my life right now, and moving home will give me that change. I have chosen to go to my home ward. I need a break from the dating scene. The last couple months have been very rough. After I was cheated on again for the third time I finally realized that living a life where there was no trust was not the life I wanted. Living a life where I wasn't happy, and not treated very well was not worth it. For the first time in my life I finally realized that I DESERVE to be happy. I DESERVE to have the best! After a long journey I have FINALLY ended things with Clayton forever and for always. Again, a huge boulder was lifted, and I can be myself again. I am grateful for my family, and friends who always supported me through my relationship. They trusted me to make the right decision. They stood by me through the thick and the thin, and loved me for me. I am grateful to have such amazing people in my life. So back to the home ward.... I got a calling today. Drum roll please...... I am the new PRIMARY CHORISTER. Yes, I said Chorister. For those who know me I can't sing at all!! I play the piano, but can't sing. I am terrified, but so excited at the same time. Children have always held a special place in my heart, and I am so excited to learn and serve the children in our ward. So if any of you have suggestions please feel free to let me know. I need all the help I can get. I had another neat experience today, and also a answer to my prayer that I have been waiting to hear, but that will come in further time......As for now I am grateful for my life right now. I am grateful for these past couple of months and the trials that I have faced. They have made me who I am today. I am grateful for a Heavenly Father who has led me to where I need to be! So there ya have it my life in a NUT SHELL!!

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